One day I'm going to learn to use my actual Live Journal for this kind if stuff instead of my DA journal.

I went to Anime USA. I'm not sure I can properly describe what this convention meant to me. For the first time I broke out of my shell and let myself interact with the people around me... apparently I chose just the right time to do so because I met one of the most awesome groups of people I have ever had the honor to run across.

Speaking of which, I need to learn how to translate myself better over AIM. I'm never sure if I'm bothering anyone when I'm talking to them. Loooool~ everytime I tell myself to stop second guessing everything I type I only do it more. It's so much easier to talk to people in person.

Jumping back subjects, this con lead both myself and my best friend to figure we could warp our funds around enough to go to Katsucon pretty much just so we can hang around these people some more. xD;

Anything after that though...

Things are getting complicated. I'm mentally desperately scrambling to be ready to move out in two weeks to go to PVCC in Jan. I know what I'm doing, why, with some of the strongest conviction I've ever had it's just the how that has caused my mom and I to come to quite a few arguments over the past month. The most recent was today in the car during the trip back to Mary Baldwin.

She said she was behind me but that me comparing my college experience to "Jesup" is kind of over the top. I don't think she gets what I'm saying though, I don't want to be stuck anywhere anymore in my life. I'm never going to let someone tell me to just stick it out.

Not when I can fix it.

My point being that any conventions after Katsu are going to be case by case. I'm going to be adding a lot of expenses that I'm not used to handling come January. School, helping mom and a job come before conventions no matter how much I may wish it was different.

Things are just going to be tough for a while.

[deep breath]

Which of course means cosplay comes after all that. Honestly, I'm freaking out a bit at that and am a couple of spazzes away from spending every penny in my bank account to try and buy as much of the stuff that I need, before anything changes.

The hardest thing about all this is going to be living away from my roommate turned best friend. Even during the Thanksgiving break I kept wanting to call her and tell her about stupid little things that had popped into my mind. Hell, she was the reason I even gave Mary Baldwin a third try.

Aaaand the last thing. I've lost almost thirteen pounds in the last three months. I'm actually starting to see it too, which only makes me want to work harder at it.

(Then of course there is a whoooooole other issue that had turned me into a flailing spazz but that is mostly positive and I will be keeping to myself... kind of.)



Either way,
In and between all of this, I'm so glad I have the people in my life that I have right now. New and old, you guys keep me going. Thank you! <3



(I shouldn't re-watch Glee episodes before typing journals. It makes me emotional. xDD;;; )